BztHoUgHtS & kISSeS
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My loudspeaker.
An outlet for my emotions.
Sunday, August 07, 2005
I think I need more space. To get a grip of myself. Living in excess this year. Or rather, in an extreme manner. I realise I need to regain my sanity after realising I almost punched ALBT in the face yesterday night.
I took too much things personally. That's why things that may seem trivial to many will affect me emotionally. There's so much resentment towards so many imperfections in this world. I myself is imperfect of course. But I just can't shake it off then. I MUST behave myself. Haha, not to indulge in my own misbehaviour ritey?
Sometimes looking back, everyone has their own thinkings and own stands then. Everyone is bought up differently.. Hmm.. I should be more tolerance of others? I think I should adopt what Aijiri has said :" Laugh at the world."
But there is something I still cant comprehend. I think I'm dumb. Should I continue to hold back my tongue like the past and to be accused of being a hypocrite when I lashed back at everything? Or should I continue to lash at every chance I had so to get my point across?
Nah, I'll just try to be dumber. Hee hee.. I dun remember anything...
Sometimes we held something so dear that we expect too much from it.