BztHoUgHtS & kISSeS
This is my world. BZ's world
My loudspeaker.
An outlet for my emotions.
Sunday, July 24, 2005Open your eyes and look outside, find the reasons why. You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind. Be strong, be strong now. Too many, too many problems. Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs. She wants to go home, but nobody's home. It's where she lies, broken inside. With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes. Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides. Her dreams she can't find. She's losing her mind. She's fallen behind. She can't find her place. She's losing her faith. She's fallen from grace. She's all over the place. Yeah,oh
She wants to go home, but nobody's home. It's where she lies, broken inside. With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes. Broken inside.
I dun believe in any bullshit anymore. No more amiable me. I like my angry self than being stepped all over again. No more Ms. Nice.
To all my Friends: I used to have friends that I put them above my world. No floppy discs to save your precious projects? I rush down for you. Need me to print tons of examimations paper for you? I print for you till the school library closed. What do I get in return? Nothing. Just someone passing by your teenage life. Just the fat old BZ. Just the usual double standards I get from everyone. Everyone are entitled to change my plans but not me. No one sensed my frustrations except me. No one wanted to understand why am I angry. Because I aren't happy at the current state! Who wants to be grumpy and mad all the time?! Now everyone found their new best friends. I will never believe wholeheartedly in friendships anymore.
To ALBT: I never thought love is everything. I'm a realistic person. However I believe that everyone should be treated with respect. I'm not your usual dumb girl. I can sense something wrong. You wanted me to go away because you were afraid that your childhood friend will see me and make snide comments about me to you. So I am unpresentable? I not your 'yellow-faced' wife. I'm fat but I've got self-respect at times. In addition, do not insult my intelligence. I wonder if my sensitivities are my downfall. The world is so dark.
