Thursday, April 21, 2005
I dunno why I'm so easily pissed off. Regardless of home, school or work. Anything that falls beyond my expectation, I'll blow my top. I think I need anger management. I dun wanna become the person I dun like for years cos of her foul temper.
10:11 AM
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Yes, here is not a welfare state that gives allowances for the unemployed but a Nanny state instead. From getting paranoid that citizens aren't reproducing fast enough and setting so many ridiculous rules and regulations for the locals to prevent them from getting hooked to gambling when they allowed two casinos to be build here. Locals have to pay $100 per day or get a pass for $2,000 per year to gamble at the casinos? And they even set up a help group for the addicted gambler. So contradicting. And the response for the locals are ridiculous. It's so funny that they expect the government to do every thing for them, just like a nanny. Things don't go well in life and they'll blame it on the government.
1:32 PM
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Had a midnight meeting tonight. It was held after the closing. This is because our outlet had just came under a new RM and she had bought about lots of changes to the outlet and the staff discipline. That meeting took about 3 hours. Complimented me for being active up and down the restaurant?!?!? But I'm guilty of several imperfections like personal groming. My hair is always in a mess.
Tonight's crowd is like madness. Kitchen cropped up, we croppped up. I'm guilty of not writing my numbers clearly too. Feels like the old paragon today. Madness mania~ Customers venting anger at me again. I'm jus a poor lit' waitress that has no right to decide anything. I can't cook and I'm not a kitchen crew that can whip up food they wanted. Bleah~ Tired... zZZzZZ Tomorrow is another long day. But working is better than going out. Maybe I'm a workaholic but a lazy bum at home.
3:28 AM
Friday, April 15, 2005
I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.
What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.
Yeah,oh
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
She's lost inside, lost inside...oh oh yeah
11:02 PM
I'm hurt. Your words hurt me more than steel and knives. I'm always others' listening ears. NO one is mine.People say I bottled-up my feelings too much, yet when I say my words, people ask me " So what you expect me to do?" I expect nothing. Just some comforting words to let me know you are there, supporting me even if you not with me. I'm tired. Everyone wants companionship for themselves but not being a good companion for others. I shall wash my hands out of everyone's matter.If not what I said will put used against me or put into my mouth.
"Leave me alone"-B
" YOu are demented." -J
" Whatever. Go do your stupid work to get your stupid money to go overseas." -A
2:23 PM
Thursday, April 14, 2005
argh.. finally finished my exams.. today is the first day I worked in the afternoon after so many months. Lunch crowd are horrible. They mainly comprise of office people and they are demanding and arent'gracious at all. They want to have side plates here and there but drops their food all around their the place except their mouths. And they have no eyes that we are so busy. I still prefer working for the night. MOre friendly and more tips. $_$ Not that I get any tips though.,..
3:43 AM
Saturday, April 02, 2005
Sweet stuff makes me sick. Yes. They create a riot to my system. They create lotsa phlegm. Like that two bar of chocolate I took a few days ago. I had sore throat, ear ache, headache and now cough... Disastrous. .Tsk Tsk. Ha. I'm getting more nonsensical these few days. I wonder if my left part of my brain is connected to my right one.. Ha.
10:14 AM
